Some things never change...

10 mins after sitting down to dinner with my step - dad who I have not seen in almost 14 years and who I have very little contact with - reminded me twice what a bad kid I was...I must have made a serious impression there b/c he cannot let it go. I have never heard him say one nice thing about me...ever.

Kim did not fare much better either...disappointed she was made to feel like a disappointment. It is a bewildering thing. Some ppl are just like that though, they have a different set of standards in life...success = money and possessions and if you lack those things you are a failure. By that standard Kim and I are both failures ha ha ha ha hahahaha ha hahaaaa But what a narrow and lame criteria to judge people by...considering MOST ppl have neither that leaves a very small portion of the population you relate to...ugh the judgement...the grumpiness....the negatively....I think a lot of ppl feel this from parents, that disapproval, chronic or otherwise, but....jfc...it boggles my mind. I had hoped it would have been a different kind of visit...nothing outlandish like we would really connect as adults and have some common ground...but just not rehash a bunch of shit that we will never agree on...silly me.

I will stick to being an orphan with 2 really awesome aunties.

Big famjam weekend...Aunt, Uncle, Cousin, Cousin, Cousin's husband, 2 little cousins....full house! Should be chaos!! Looking fwd to it though.