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I'm in bed . It's 11:38 PM . I'm doing this all by the voice feature on my phone . I will not correct anything . My arm is to fucking sore to type even with my fingers . I am wallowing in the state of total and utter self-pity at the moment . it's brother disgusting of me really … I did not say brother I said rather . It is rather disgusting of me really because it could be a lot worse but that's not really helping my psyche right now .
will swallowing I did not say will swallowing ! I said willst wallowing … WH I L ST willst fuck you phone fucking fuck … I guess I'll have to be less fancy with my talking into this stupid piece of shit .
While one is wallowing in self-pity and in pain with no end in sight it's easy to think of that movie hundred and 27 hours for fuck sakes … 127 hours where James Franco cuts off his own arm … I thought about this but the thought of having phantom limb pain as an amputee is more distasteful than what I'm entering right now … In during … And Duehring … And do her in … ha ha ha ha ha … Hello
Backspace backspace I guess this thing doesn't backspace piece of junk
Enduring.... okay I had to type that one word because this phone would not could not figure it out . So I was not trying to enter anything I was just enduring . Ho ha ha ha ha you're all that now it decides that it knows what that word is .
I'm making myself to ship this weekend . SH IT shit not ship.
so I'm making myself do some stuff this weekend socializing mostly . Esther is coming over Saturday afternoon to do some sowing . Sewing . Then later that evening I'm going to play music gringo . Bingo not gringo . With Kate and Jesse at a pub.
Sunday is just for me . Monday I'll hit a movie with Erin.... that's me social butterfly .
so I'm making myself do some stuff this weekend socializing mostly . Esther is coming over Saturday afternoon to do some sowing . Sewing . Then later that evening I'm going to play music gringo . Bingo not gringo . With Kate and Jesse at a pub.
Sunday is just for me . Monday I'll hit a movie with Erin.... that's me social butterfly .
There's other things I want to talk about the Ractis voice … What the fuck is Ractis ? there are other things I want to talk about but at the rate this voice thing is working it's probably a poor idea to even bother .
Ayla is doing well in Australia . She just got a job in Sydney making toast at the café . I find this amusing imagining her standing around making toast in the summer nightmare that is Australia currently . Hopefully she can save up enough money before May so she can go to New Zealand . her birthday is February 1 hard to believe she will be 21 … That's a pretty epic birthday … This will be the second birthday she's been away . This is also the second birthday I haven't been able to get her a goofy cake and make her endure my little birthday rituals … Which is code for pissing her off.
Tomorrow I have physeal again in the morning … Sfizio … Physiotherapy yeah it did it … I have physiotherapy in the morning which I am finding tedious and boring now because I'm not really getting the results I was hoping . Cute physiotherapist Chris says nerves can take a very long time to calm down … That much is very clear and real to me and I'm not finding it very comforting … But I will go and get in the traction machine and get my head pulled from my neck and hopes it might do something to help … $70 every time I go … Thank God I get 80% back … I would prefer not to have to go anywhere no more doctor no more physiotherapy Millmore massage therapy no more massage therapy … What the fuck is Milmar Milmore …
oh Em Gee .
oh Em Gee .
I am waiting for a sleeping pill to kick in . Hurry the fuck up . The more I tiredly slur the worse this voice recognition is working … I guess I can't blame it all on the phone . Good night … Maybe this will become a bedtime ritual .