Nuggets
This getting old business is funny...things you cannot even recall bothering you your whole life suddenly take on this massive importance, ruling your happiness. How did this happen? All these things are just more to add to my already (and growing) long list of neurosis'...and no matter how justified they may be in my head I know how they sound spoken out loud to a third party.
What else sucks about getting older....Oh - those moments of crystal clear clarity (they are not the norm any more) where something you already know logically suddenly gets drilled home so hard that your emotional self has a moment of true understanding....like THE moment in your life when you were at a crossroads, though did not know it at the time, and the decision you made at that very fucking moment would ultimately lead you down a path of complete personal and emotional unhappiness. I had that moment this weekend out of nowhere, it was pretty surprising...luckily, the good in your life is not erased by these sorts of realizations and I can honestly say I wouldn't trade the good to see what may have happened but...regardless - they are doozy moments.
Oh and thinning hair, that sucks.
I could actually go on and on about this topic but it will get kind of gross once I move into the physical aspects so lets just not.
Watched SOUTHPAW last night....felt like having some Jake Gyllenhaal in my life...was not banking on the tear fest that was though...jfc...I ended up waking up with puffy cry baby eyes this morning for work and for once it was not b/c I was having some personal late night revelation haha Really enjoyed the flick, JG is just such a great actor but jfc so sad.
After that I went to bed and got to feel my first earthquake (stop it with the masturbation jokes in your head right now)...it was very short but very unmistakably exactly what it was...there was no assuming a car hit the bldg or anything like that...my bedroom window shuttered so loudly I knew nothing else could do that. Very weird and strange to say the least....I love that Facebook lights up with other locals feeling the same thing....unity in danger! Love it! No aftershocks or other earthquakey business after thankfully...I can now imagine what it is like when it is harder and longer (again, enough with the perv thoughts)...terrifying business!
I spent the last 2 days watching all 6 Star Wars movies so I could be refreshed to go see the new one, which I am going to tonight while it is all still in my head clearly. I am pretty sure I might have only ever see part of 1 of the original 3 as a kid....the marketing was/is so damn intense though that I assumed I had seen them all hahaha
Christmas is over...whew. Always a relief even at the best of times.
What else sucks about getting older....Oh - those moments of crystal clear clarity (they are not the norm any more) where something you already know logically suddenly gets drilled home so hard that your emotional self has a moment of true understanding....like THE moment in your life when you were at a crossroads, though did not know it at the time, and the decision you made at that very fucking moment would ultimately lead you down a path of complete personal and emotional unhappiness. I had that moment this weekend out of nowhere, it was pretty surprising...luckily, the good in your life is not erased by these sorts of realizations and I can honestly say I wouldn't trade the good to see what may have happened but...regardless - they are doozy moments.
Oh and thinning hair, that sucks.
I could actually go on and on about this topic but it will get kind of gross once I move into the physical aspects so lets just not.Watched SOUTHPAW last night....felt like having some Jake Gyllenhaal in my life...was not banking on the tear fest that was though...jfc...I ended up waking up with puffy cry baby eyes this morning for work and for once it was not b/c I was having some personal late night revelation haha Really enjoyed the flick, JG is just such a great actor but jfc so sad.
After that I went to bed and got to feel my first earthquake (stop it with the masturbation jokes in your head right now)...it was very short but very unmistakably exactly what it was...there was no assuming a car hit the bldg or anything like that...my bedroom window shuttered so loudly I knew nothing else could do that. Very weird and strange to say the least....I love that Facebook lights up with other locals feeling the same thing....unity in danger! Love it! No aftershocks or other earthquakey business after thankfully...I can now imagine what it is like when it is harder and longer (again, enough with the perv thoughts)...terrifying business!
I spent the last 2 days watching all 6 Star Wars movies so I could be refreshed to go see the new one, which I am going to tonight while it is all still in my head clearly. I am pretty sure I might have only ever see part of 1 of the original 3 as a kid....the marketing was/is so damn intense though that I assumed I had seen them all hahaha
Christmas is over...whew. Always a relief even at the best of times.