Pre-Move Spazz Out
So....it is finally real. We move Apr 23 and I am going nuts. It is times like these when I realize how poor my coping skill set is. I am easily overwhelmed. I am laughing in my head right now at how civilized that sounds when there is nothing civilized about it.
Funny how as one gets older 'change' seems to become more difficult. I used to not give 2 shits about going to the dentist, moving, changing jobs....now the dentist has become a source of anxiety (while not crippling still very weird), moving is extremely disruptive to my mojo in an indescribable way and changing jobs feels like a death sentence.
Man, we used to move almost yearly when I was a child...Prince George BC, Vancouver BC, Regina SK, Swan Hills AB, Wainwright AB, Edgerton AB, Rainbow Lake AB, Regina AK again, Moose Jaw SK (I am 13 at this point)....then the divorce happened: Ponoka AB, Moose Jaw SK, Ponoka AB again, Red Deer AB, Powell River BC (now I just graduated high school)...then on my own to Lake Louise AB, Lacombe AB, Ponoka AB, Red Deer AB, Powell River BC, Port Coquitlam BC, Port Moody BC, Powell River BC (knocked up, 23 yrs old and stayed in PR for 10 years).....then we moved to Victoria BC in 2003. So much moving...used to be much less of an ordeal than it is now...but I have gotten extremely neurotic in my 40's. Last night the kid asked me about a place I lived and asked where I got the bed I used at the time and I had no idea and she was shocked b/c now I am so anal about all that stuff now. Such a useless use of energy being neurotic. FML.
Anyhow...so the last few weekends have been all about getting rid of stuff....sold a bunch...now I am in give away mode just to get it the H out of my space b/c I do not want to be stuck with it...or pay movers to move something I am not going to have room for....it is strange that the new place, with all its benefits, is stressing me out due to SPACE....this current apt for all its flaws is BIG and has a lot of storage/closets....this new place has a lack of closet space...or so it seems...I am probably spazzing out for NOTHING AS PER USUAL. Oy.
Yeah so dealing with ppl off UsedVictoria.com as been a shit show, so many no shows...late....gawd...its friggin annoying...today I am expecting 4 ppl....so far 2 are late...ones nearby but the other might be a ditcher...I plan all the times to avoid over lap and how much you wanna bet they all show up at the same time and send this spazz into overdrive? HA!
The cat is loving life though ha ha ha It is like a cat amusement park around here right meow.
MIRACLE MOMENT: someone showed up for a few items...fingers crossed the big items are taken away today...not that I am looking fwd to watching tv sitting in a camping chair and eating on a tv tray but whatevs.
Funny how as one gets older 'change' seems to become more difficult. I used to not give 2 shits about going to the dentist, moving, changing jobs....now the dentist has become a source of anxiety (while not crippling still very weird), moving is extremely disruptive to my mojo in an indescribable way and changing jobs feels like a death sentence.
Man, we used to move almost yearly when I was a child...Prince George BC, Vancouver BC, Regina SK, Swan Hills AB, Wainwright AB, Edgerton AB, Rainbow Lake AB, Regina AK again, Moose Jaw SK (I am 13 at this point)....then the divorce happened: Ponoka AB, Moose Jaw SK, Ponoka AB again, Red Deer AB, Powell River BC (now I just graduated high school)...then on my own to Lake Louise AB, Lacombe AB, Ponoka AB, Red Deer AB, Powell River BC, Port Coquitlam BC, Port Moody BC, Powell River BC (knocked up, 23 yrs old and stayed in PR for 10 years).....then we moved to Victoria BC in 2003. So much moving...used to be much less of an ordeal than it is now...but I have gotten extremely neurotic in my 40's. Last night the kid asked me about a place I lived and asked where I got the bed I used at the time and I had no idea and she was shocked b/c now I am so anal about all that stuff now. Such a useless use of energy being neurotic. FML.
Anyhow...so the last few weekends have been all about getting rid of stuff....sold a bunch...now I am in give away mode just to get it the H out of my space b/c I do not want to be stuck with it...or pay movers to move something I am not going to have room for....it is strange that the new place, with all its benefits, is stressing me out due to SPACE....this current apt for all its flaws is BIG and has a lot of storage/closets....this new place has a lack of closet space...or so it seems...I am probably spazzing out for NOTHING AS PER USUAL. Oy.
Yeah so dealing with ppl off UsedVictoria.com as been a shit show, so many no shows...late....gawd...its friggin annoying...today I am expecting 4 ppl....so far 2 are late...ones nearby but the other might be a ditcher...I plan all the times to avoid over lap and how much you wanna bet they all show up at the same time and send this spazz into overdrive? HA!The cat is loving life though ha ha ha It is like a cat amusement park around here right meow.
MIRACLE MOMENT: someone showed up for a few items...fingers crossed the big items are taken away today...not that I am looking fwd to watching tv sitting in a camping chair and eating on a tv tray but whatevs.